It has certainly been awhile since I saw you. I cannot believe it has been years since we last spoke. I did not think that this could happen to us. It is so completely crazy that you are not my person anymore. You were the one person I was able to count on for anything. You were the one person I called when anything good or bad happened in my life. You were my person. We were supposed to be friends forever. Forever. What happened?
I just want to say that I am sorry.
I thought you should know that someone else is my best friend now. It makes me sad that we are not making new memories like I thought we would be. It makes me sad that I never posted all of the pictures I have of us together. I often think back to the days when we were so close and it breaks my heart that things turned out the way that they did.
I do want to say thank you.
I want to thank you for being my best friend. Thank you for sharing your family with me and letting me treat them as if they were my own. I need you to know that I think about your mom; every single day. I miss your dad like crazy, and I still think your brother is the cutest human, ever.
I miss you.
I miss talking to you about every single thing that happens in my life. I miss jamming out in the car with you. I miss getting coffee with you. I miss seeing you at work and sharing secrets with you. I miss what we were and what we had. I miss the comfort of it. I miss the ease with which we could hang out, and laugh and dance and be carefree and fearless. I miss our friendship.
How did this happen?
Why didn’t we try or fight harder for our friendship? It was a special kind of friendship that was different than most and I cannot believe we let it just slip away. We are now two complete strangers living completely separate lives. We are right around the corner from each other yet we are no longer in each other’s life.
Because of you, we will never talk again.
We will never laugh together again. We will never call each other up just to say hi. We will never meet for dinner. We will never send each other birthday cards and celebrate another fun year together. We will never have girls’ nights and talk about the world, our dreams and our ambitions. We will never have birthday parties for our future children and invite one another over early to hang out before the chaos begins. We will never be friends again.
Doesn’t that bother you? It bothers me and it makes me sad.
I am sad because we once had such a strong bond and now, that bond is broken; never to be repaired again. You never called. You never texted. You never wrote. You never once tried to make it right, to see how I am or what is happening in my life. You never once acted like you cared, or even missed me.
I hope that one day you think back to us and our friendship, and smile. I hope you never forget all of the memories that we made. I hope you have another best friend now that you can share all of your new memories with.
xoxo
Your Ex-Best Friend
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